In today’s Thinking Out Loud I will be talking about a hard topic. Suicide. Today marks a year that I lost my cousin, Patrick, due to him taking his own life. He was only 29 years old, which to me is way too young. We found out the day before my birthday, July 8, about my cousin passing away. I remember exactly how I heard. My mom called and I was in American Eagle. I just stared at my sister, ran to my car and just started bawling. He was my sister’s best friend and having to tell her this was one of the hardest things to do in my life. I could go on and on, but I don’t want to go into too much detail about this topic. Yes, it eases the pain just letting everything out, but sometimes things should just be held in. Again, sorry for this ranting/venting session, but it’s totally needed. So thank you so much to all my amazing bookish friends for being so wonderfully amazing 🙂 I truly appreciate it.
Depression and suicide is a thing that people veer away from in the book world. I wish more people would take this subject head on. Yes, it may be difficult to do, but not many people get how much this effects people so sending this out to the amazing bookish community would do wonders.
The reason for me doing this post is to not only remember Patrick, but to show case some books that I feel like showcased depression and/or suicide well…or at least showed some of its sides.
Thirteen Reasons Why by Jay Asher // When I first read this book…ages ago, okay my freshman year in high school, but that was 2008-9, so it feels like years ago…I loved it. But, when I saw some reviews recently (mainly speaking of Cait’s from Paper Fury). She pointed out that Hannah was kind of a (well more than kind of) bitch. I go back and look at this book and see that she kind of was, she was bullied don’t get me wrong, but she also bullied everyone right back…even worse.
Though, with all of that said, I do think this book showcases suicide and depression well. So many people think that this book, well Hannah, complains just for the hell of it. That is one of my biggest pet peeves when it comes to this issue. Just because it doesn’t seem like it’s a big deal to you does not mean it’s not a big deal to them. Depression is much more than what meets the eye. So please, don’t judge just because you wouldn’t react the same way you would have.
Speak by Laurie Halse Anderson // As I didn’t enjoy this book very much, many people did. This book has spoken to many people and I feel like it’s done a great job at provoking such a wonderful thing from people. It opened many people’s eyes. Just because someone who was/is popular does not mean they have the luxurious life everyone thinks. This book SPEAKS volumes.
All the Bright Places by Jennifer Niven // This was one of the first books I read this year and wow, did it make me cry. Jennifer does such a magnificent job at showcasing depression. Finch is such a magnificent person and honestly reminds me a lot about my cousin. He had his awake stages and I feel like my cousin did as well. You could look at him and it would seem as everything would be perfectly fine, but one moment later and everything could be dwindling away.
I know I’m going on and on (and it seems like each of these books kind of does the same thing, but they all do something special in their own way – even if I can’t write (say it) properly).
The Last Time We Say Goodbye by Cynthia Hand // Now this book was so well written. A lot of the book was confusion as to why Lex’s brother killed himself. No one really knew why he did…they looked at him and never saw anything wrong. I think that is one of the most important things to get out of this book. Depression is not something that you see with the naked eye. It is so much more. Like with my cousin, I knew he was upset at times, but I never, ever thought that it would come to the point where he would end his life. Well, really, do any of us think that when we see a loved one upset? Rarely. You see this happening in The Last Time We Say Goodbye and I think it shows a lot.